There's this boy

Unfortunately he has a gf, even more unfortunately he doesn't want to be with her but stays in the relationship anyway. He told me the only reason he's with her anymore is so she doesn't hurt herself. I hate seeing him trapped like this because he really deserve to be with someone that'll treat him right. They just aren't good for each other anymore, and it's both of their faults. 

He's really a good guy too. He makes me feel better about myself on just a platonic level than probably any romantic interest in my life ever has. In the short time we've been friends he's really shown me I can find someone I don't need to beg for the bare minimum. He's really patient with me about my mental issues, and I love knowing that everyone else around us can see he cares about me. 

A lot of people at work thinks he has feelings for me, but right now I think we're meant to be in each other's lives for the friendship we can offer each other. But god every time we make eye contact I just wish I could kiss him. I really want to be with him even if I can't for a number of reasons. Part of me even wishes he'd overhear me talking about him to our coworkers just so he knows how highly I really think of him