god i really am putting my eggs in one basket

my old job is rehiring seasonals in may and i haven’t applied to other jobs because i’m ~mentally ill~ and the other jobs that i got interviews for AND GOT HIRED i FUCKING QUIT LITERALLY THE DAY AFTER STARTING BOTH OF THEM because i got too overwhelmed working in new environments (tbh they were both very bad so bullets dodged but still i use to be able to stick it to those types of jobs but nowadays i can barely handle talking to people)

my old job was fire i was able to do it fine without freaking out or having bad anxiety so i’m really trying to work there again but its not a guaranteed job, like i did a good job last time i worked there but slots could get filled or maybe they won’t even need seasonals this year

i’m too scared to apply anywhere else and i also don’t wanna apply somewhere and not be able to work at my other job because i really liked it, i’m just hurting myself at this point and it blows yk ://

idk i hope things work out, but i really need to start looking for backups before its too late