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Lately, I’ve been feeling odd. I guess not odd, because these feelings are quite familiar to me. Ever since I turned 18, I’ve felt time slipping through my fingers. Everything is going so fast. Yet, it also feels so slow. I’m impatient. I’ve always had a bad habit of spoiling books and movies for myself and I want to spoil the ending of my life for myself. Do I become anything? Will I be happy? Will I be successful? I feel like everything is changing, like I’m changing. But I also feel I’m not changing fast enough. That I’m not improving. Like I am stuck. I look at the people I went to high school with and even my friends. They seem light years ahead of me- emotionally, financially, physically. Now that I’m 21, these feelings and insecurities are even more intense coupled with the fact that I’m graduating. I loved college, but I feel I didn’t use my time wisely. I wish I had more time. I always wish for more time. I don’t want to graduate. Life is comfortable right now. I don’t like change. I don’t want to grow up, yet I have to. There’s something I always have to do. Do my peers feel like this too? Or am I still so immature as to throw a temper tantrum over the mere thought of change? I’m not sure.