night thoughts

Sometimes I feel like I don't will really have a future, like, I can't thing abt my own future, idk what I wan't to work with, were I wanna live, if I will have pets and pretty much everything abt my own future

I don't wanna die, death is actually one of my biggest fears but I really can't imagine myself being 18+ and it is REALLY SCARY to think that I only have 4 years to decide all that...

In conclusion: future scares me so freaking much