I feel bad for my friends for having to deal with me LOL

 Lol im an annoying person and tbh idk how they keep up with me anymore i literally will do little meows as a vocal stim [autistic moment] in vc while they're playing fighting games and they get distracted which leads them to losing + i do dumb shit all the time like piercing myself. and then they try to "fix" me and when dont succeed with "fixing" me they get all sad. like wth i'm stuck being the fucking antisocial emo loser whos expected to shoot up the school at any minute because of the information that my mental health bein shit is extremely public due to my ex friends. (fuck you. fr i dont need yalls shit in my life i already have problems) and back when i used to cut my sleeve was pulled up by one of the other guys in my class. infront of many people. that shit hurts fr nobody should go through that im getting off topic this is my blog and ill get as off topic as i want. and i will curse like i just learned how to say curse words lmao