I feel bad...

I've just had a sod moment right now unfortunately. I was thinking about stuff I shouldn't think of cause it will have a bad effect on my health. Only Mr Rat knows what these thoughts are and I'm glad only he knows, I'm just upset that I've gone back to that way of thinking. I don't know what to do right now really...

I'm trying my hardest to move on but there just isn't a good way to. I'm going to move on, I have to but that's all down to time itself cause no amount of magic goo or whatever will ever help me out immediately, I've had a wake up call that's sorted its just what I do now with the extra phone credit (nice metaphor if I do say so myself). As I said before I'm looking into hobbies which I may or may not be good at and just like with the piano I got to practice getting used to my new cards dealt (different people I wanna date) except there's no real cards that interest me I really only liked that one, I'm sure there's going to be new people I meet later down the line, I just have to deal with what's going on now for a while before the inevitable happens (see when I talked about Mr Rat's theories)

I'm sorry if this entry was filled with dumb metaphors I tend to to that when I'm tired cause its the only way my brain really thinks, I'm also sorry if this post has been similar to the last five cause I don't want to fill all my blogs up with doom and gloom I've had some nice thoughts as of recent and it's just a matter of time I focus on the positives.

Stay Safe, Kitsune Out!!!