ONE OF MY FRIENDS IS REALLY CUTE WHAT DO I DO HELPPPPP

OK SO FIRSTLY IM GONNA . OK SO HE DOESNT HAVE SPACEYHEY OR TUMBLR AND EVEN IF I SHOWED HIM MY PAGE IF UR READING THIS ITS SUUUPER STATISTICALLY LOW THAT UR THE ONE THAT I HAVE A SMALL(?) CRUSH ON BC I KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE AND GUYS IN DIFF COMMUNITIES SO SHUTUPITSNOTYOUAND YOU DONT KNOW HIM /LIGHTHEARTED /god help me

/no but seriously im in so many different forums and sites and games soooooo likeeeeeee also im very frequently in various voice chats w different friend groups . i seriously know a lot of communities . 

ANYWAYS ouch my heart hurts (bu-dump bu-dump) ok ok so . im so scared to say how we met bc its extremely specific BUT . we both like videogames . I dont even know . If he likes guys but god damn hes cute and I love hearing him talk and when I saw what he looks like . Ok so i always thought I had a "type" but the truth is I absolutely do NOT bc GODDDD hes cute and i would never have thought of him as my type. Hes super talented too!!!! GODDDDD and his voice is the best. Im super fucking hyped whenever hes online and shows his talents like YESSSSSSS do the thing!!!! Do the thing silly guy!!!!! god hes cute AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

hes so nerdy too. I fucking ADORE nerdy guys. i love punk guys, scene fellows, and whatnot but like . literally show me the textbook example of a nerdy adult man and i'll be head over heels like fr im very easy to please . my qualifications for what i find attractive are: adult, nerd, male, ?????, nerd

Im not sure if hes ND or whatever but he understands p well w my ADHD and whatnot I feel like. Like he'll explain whatever to me seriously if I have a question (even if it was a lighthearted question) and actually listens and rarely interrupts me. PLUS he wasnt rude abt something I wrote when another friend was (couldnt tell if he was also annoyed or not but he didnt voice it). HE ALSOFUCKING SHOWED ME COOL THINGS IN A GAME VERY PAITENTLY ;W; LIKE???? maybe its my dysfunctional, ND, trauma filled gayass but when people are like genuinely patient w me its super rare. ALSO HE IGNORES MY TICS!!!! KING SHIT!!!!! (its extremely annoying and can trigger them more if people bring attention to it</3)

I so rarely develop genuine crushes on real people helpppp. I genuinely dont wanna ask him out tho bc i just dont see it happening??? and were not close anyways????? cuz we dont talk much(hoping 2 change that.....). Plus, im 1000% fine w that lmao. I dont wanna date until im much older anyways. Also i can come across as hella annoying bc of how eccentric I am so I dont wanna accidently annoy him away from me</3 also its so hard to hold back on small flirting . i dont wanna make things awkward so im just like :) help m

also ik its hard to tell platonic crushes from romantic crushes however i so rarely get romantic crushes on real people so i can tell relatively quickly TYUJHGYHu

god bless my biracial gayass