never shout never rant AGH

its literally 5 am and i haven't slept yet but i'm watching the old music videos and dude, the emotions that these songs and videos give me is crazy. ESPECIALLY I LOVE YOU 5!! i literally can not contain myself when that video or song is on, it makes me so genuinely happy i think that song could make me smile no matter what. there's so many nsn songs that make me insanely happy but there's also plenty of songs that make me sosososo sad. i often go to nsn when I'm sad because christofer's lyrics are so meaningful, like if you actually sit down and listen to the story he tells in each songs its really beautiful. some songs that make me really sad or comfort me when I'm sad are losing it, hazel eyes, peace song, what is love, i love you more than you will ever know, the past, on the brightside and even more but like if anyones actually interested i can make a detailed blog post about their music :p

ALSO CHRIS'S VOICE DUDE

he used to have such an adorable and absolutely beautiful voice and now that its changed its still gorgeous but it sounds a lot more mature and soft, he will forever be so talented. i think he will always be one of my favorite vocalists, can you blame me?? his voice is just so pretty ill never get enough of it. EVEN IN EATMEWHILEIMHOT! his voice was so cute and like angsty in emwih but his screaming was also super good???? like he's so talented UGH. 

now about what's been goin on recently. (would prefer you don't read if you don't really know about chris but do as you wish)

i don't know everything about his situation cuz i don't like intruding too much into his personal life but to my knowledge he's been struggling with addiction for a while now. I'm not sure how long, i know he's been smoking since he was a teenager but I'm not entirely sure what all he was dealing with. according to his new instagram account, which i wont share (its not really hard to find at all i just don't wanna bring to light any of his social media if he's already struggling yk?) he's been getting sober from whatever it is. it seems like its probably drug or alcohol issues rather than just weed or cigarettes but i genuinely hope what he's saying about getting sober is true cuz as much as i try not to idolize him or put him on a pedestal i do care about him. he's influenced my life and helped me a lot with his music and even tho i joke about him i genuinely am very grateful for that. damon fizzy recently on twitter was talking about this and said he's lied about being sober before so i really hope chris is getting better this time. if everything he says is true i think he's sober for the most part and is moving away from music for now to do art which is awesome and should be good for him. when writing this my intentions weren't to drag his name or make him look bad but rather point out where he seems to be getting better, that's why i said at the beginning i would prefer if people that don't know about him didn't read, I'm not trying to like gatekeep or anything ofc lol. 

anyways to sum it up i just hope he's doing okay and i will forever enjoy the gift that is never shout never. feel free to comment ur opinions or whateva just don't be rude. there's no need to put rude opinions on people on the internet if its not necessary. okay bai u should subscribe 2 my blog if u like what i post >:3