A thing I wrote ten years ago when I was a straight edge punk. That version of me only lasted six months.

Trying to get clean only doing this for me. Why must you make a scene about it? Don't want to shout about it and hello don't want to drink about it that's why I'm going without it.

Never be ashamed cause I'm not the same. Give it up you can still remain. It may come down like the rain. It's just hard ENOUGH dealing with the pain. Repeats like a game.

Have you ever sat up through the days and nights wondering if it ever be alright to sit out of this life instead of having to constantly fight off this urge that you wish you can purge somewhere? Where? Who even cares?

So lets rewind back to a time when I was sick in the mind. Was never hard to find me in a bind wanting to leave this life behind. As I fell in line tried to keep me entwinned and push me back further or stuck in time. Out of luck and then it struck. 

You take this pledge as a joke because I don't want to smoke. Had to stop before it became between me and some hundred foot ledge. So take this as a note as the new me being around. Guess I see you around cause the old me has to stay down.