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I think the album Twin Fantasy by Car Seat Headrest is perfect, although I will admit I am extremely bias. Before I get into this "review" I want to explain some of the significance this album has to me. When I was 13 my best friend at the time told me to listen to the album Twin Fantasy from a band called Car Seat Headrest. At this point in my life I was beginning to think I might be gay, and had a crush on this boy. I listened to the album once then, and told him I really liked it, although in reality I was indifferent to it. I thought the songs were way to long and weird. Skip forward about a year and a half, and lockdown comes. I revisited the album, over and over and over, falling in love with it. I got the vinyl for my birthday, and it stayed spinning on my player for weeks on end. I finally felt understood by someone, I felt like Will Toledo had been though similar things as me: the struggles of being a gay teen who feels like they don't belong in this world.
In December of 2020, I had my heart broken by a boy I was in love with, who I thought I would be with forever. I remember sitting on my bedroom floor with beach life in death playing, tears running down my cheeks. I needed Wills words then. I need them now. They spoke to me in a way nothing else ever has. on the inside of the vinyl the phase "these words will still be true when you are broken - these words will still be true when you get nothing" are written. And I believe this to be true: the words spoken on this album are truthful and raw. They show what heartbreak is, but also joy and love.
The album that is the subject of this blog is reasonably popular, however when i listen to it i feel like I'm the only one who ever has. I feel as if I'm the only person in the world who knows what Car Seat Headrest is. At the time of writing this, the band is on tour and gaining popularity on tiktok, and this makes me feel mixed emotions. On one hand i am happy they are becoming more popular as they deserve the fame. On the other hand, the band feels personal to me. I know this isn't a strong argument.
I want to mention that there are two versions of this album, one written and recorded in 2011, referred to as Twin Fantasy Mirror to Mirror (mtm) and one recorded again in 2018 referred to as Twin Fantasy Face to Face (ftf). There are some differences between the two versions, mostly being the quality of the equipment used to make it. As far as i am aware, will recorded mtm in his parents car on his own, back in 2011. The microphones where cheap, but Will's young voice conveys emotion quite like no other. When he sings, I feel like he is speaking to me. the voice cracks somehow make it feel like he is singing for noone but himself, like he didnt want anyone else to hear and feel the pain he felt. In contrast the 2018 ftf is much more refined; Much higher quality equipment was used, and will now had a band to play with him. This version of the album feels more mature, as Will had aged 7 years since the first recording. I could not tell you which is better, as I like both of them.
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kiki :3
i really feel u rn,,,,,, twin fantasy is a fantastic album, and i never have heard something like it before. its just a beautiful experience overall, and i feel so seen when will sings about a bad relationship from both parts, because ive been there. hope you are better now!! if u want to, lets talk some csh l8r :)