Vent ig

I literally hate school. I was working to get into an art school but realized I'd missed the deadline. I can either rush and turn in the requirements or wait until next year in hopes that I'll get in my junior year. The school I'm at now is living hell, I feel like elenor when she realized that the good place is actually the bad place. Like all my friends are fake and all they do is talk about me and each other. I just want to move far away from this place. Everything and everyone stresses me out. I'm past my breaking point. My mom wants me to have a sweet 16 next year for my birthday but I doubt I'm going to have any friends left to invite. Honestly I don't want a birthday filled with a bunch of fake people surrounded at a table with me singing happy birthday. All everyone does is talking about how ugly I look, they have no room to talk but after a while I get numb to it. All there is is this empty feeling. I feel nothing, I want to disappear like a paper in the wind. I hope this finds whoever, is reading this well.