not so slay life

you literally cant trust anyone, i know hat sounds so like cheesy but you really cant. Lik you be thinking you have a close friend and next thing ya know, they are basically ignoring you to be with their girlfriend and not even noticing you in the room:/

i feel like my only friends i have is my best friend, gabe and my girlfriend i trust them wih like my life and it sucks cause i havnt been able to talk to gabe lot because i have to give my phone to my parents at like 4-5 pm and it sucks. And my girlfriend is moving to aisa soon which SUCKS.

i honestly cant handle life anymore im waiting for smt to change like, plea smt diffrent happen i just ugh i feel like im in a loop of getting up and going to bed after school. Sometimes i dont feel real so i have started to punch things like a rocky wall or a mirror and my knuckels have become geting at bloody and cut up and shit. And i cant control my emotions i just wanna be able to break down in tears and have people  there for me to help, but rn i feel like if i want help i have to literally YELP for it im so done.