quitting smoking (Hopefully :D) (TW)

It's been about two days since i smoked last and yesterday I had like a half day so I only had one class. I rely on caffein to have something cause I'm rlly irritable right now and its not like I can tell my friends about it or like explain my rudeness (I'm usually very calm and unaffected by like everything). Idk if quitting is the right choice, like I know its better for my health and stuff and maybe my friends wont leave me. But at the same time if I keep snapping at people like this and just keep being so rude without an explanation I feel like they're gonna leave me bc of that instead. At the same time I remember the like panic attacks I had b4 I started smoking and I don't wanna go back to that, and it's a good thing to obsess with, compared to my ed. It also used to be a social thing but now that friend has quit so idk. We'll see how it goes ig :)

(That's kinda also why I stopped using all social media, cause b4 I quit fully I smoked less than usual so I've been feeling like shit for a while now)