Awkward

Today was quite similar to yesterday really... I've recently realised that rejection had worse 
effects than I originally thought unfortunately, I feel very awkward around the girl I liked now 
and I cant really not interact with her as she's in my friend group, not that I wouldn't want
to anyway its just something that even if I would want to change it I really couldn't, I've also seen a sudden change in my behaviour around the friend group since the rejection and I realised I don't talk much anymore but I suppose that's to be expected for a while.

This will ultimately clear up soon enough once I get use to everything so I wont feel like 
this for long thankfully. 

Speaking of my friend group I genuinely don't know what will come of it later on in the 
coming years cause it seems a little temporary even though its been around for a while.
My friend (I refer to him so much I'm just gonna call him Mr Rat for practicality reasons)
Mr Rat was thinking about the long term outcome for our friend group and told me his 
theories about what will come of it sooner or later, I honestly partially agree with his thoughts 

on his ideas about the friend group drifting apart, it's honestly upsetting but I don't think the group was very cohesive in the first place, only because some people were already basically sectioned off in mini friend groups inside the full one so we don't talk to each other as much.

I've already kept a list of people I want to keep in contact with post friendship group dispersion if that were to happen, it might sound a bit weird but its the people i feel like i have the most of a connection with. 

I don't want to end this blog entry on a sour note but I really don't know what else to write about other than just random things I've been thinking about but I feel it would ruin this entries' mood and the message wont be as meaningful and even if this is meant to be a place for me to share stuff i think about personally I feel a little weird about talking about myself a lot especially with the context of the last two entries.

Stay Safe, Kitsune Out!!!