I missed you guys!!!

Hey everyone! Some of you might remember me as "GothTaku," on here and other social media in the past. You might also know me as Despair Faction Ashton's significant other, and co-designer and model for Afflicted Heartz Clothing here on SpaceHey. It's been a long while since I was last active but I'm back again!

I kind of had a falling out of love with emo and alternative stuff a while back due to personal circumstances, but lately I've been missing it a lot! After cutting out some aspects of my life that wasn't serving me well, and started accepting myself again, I decided it was time to log back in here again! So I'm back again, hoping to do some more blogging and whatnot! 

Since I last posted (deleted old blogs, sorry lol)... well a lot's happened.

It turns out I'm actually a girl! My name is Trish now (she/her) and I'm still very early on in my transition. However, my boyfriend, parents, sisters, cousins, and several friends of mine have been super supportive of me so I'm feeling really good as far as that all goes. I don't feel super safe being "out" in my hometown, so I'm most likely going to be in boy-mode for a bit in public. I want to start HRT as soon as possible but I've got some things to take care of first.

First is my Functional Neurological Disorder, which if you aren't familiar with, it manifests in me as Psychogenic Non-epileptic Seizures. Google it if you're curious, but basically my whole life for the past two years was completely derailed. It costed me my job, my sanity, my safety, and my security. Also, I ended up seeing a ton of doctors, taking tests, trying to find adequate therapy, and paying a ton in medical bills and had to survive by selling my belongings (don't even get me started with trying to apply for disability...) It was a very stressful, traumatic time in my life. I have a very good therapist right now, and I'm looking into psychologists who might be able to assist me further. If I can make sure that my seizures are minimized or fully stop, that'll be step 1.

The next step is working again! I'm looking for a remote data entry job, and studying up on using Spreadsheets. If not that, there's a local computer repair shop I applied for recently which hopefully I'll hear back from soon. I need a proper income if I'm to afford my transition, or just living on my own in general. Right now I live with my parents since they've been helping me with my health crisis, but Ashton (my boyfriend) and I hope to be out on our own soon in an apartment we've been eyeing for a while!

Anyhoo, hope to be more active here again! I want to improve my layout a bit more with graphics, which I might be working on, on and off for the next couple of days. I'm on vacation, spending time with Ashton's family right now.