woah (heavy tw for sa, sh, mental illness nd shi)

i am socially viewed as "crazy" or "insane" because of some stupid little illnesses.

bpd is all fun and quirky until you nearly hire a fucking hitman just because a girl liked ur ex (bf at the time) posts or you fantasize very in depth ways of how youre gonna hurt somebody just because they said something wrong. its all cool and quirky until people AVOID you because of it. its all cool and hot until youre crying so hard you throw up just because ur gf is friends with somebody. 

depression is SOOOO fun until your so fucking unmotivated that you dont take a shower for two weeks and refuse to eat for a week and then get a fucking bladder infection because you couldnt bring yourself to get out of your damn bed to take a fucking piss.

Hpd is so fun until you take even the slightest bit of affection from a guy whos 10 years fucking older than you and thinking he feels some sort of way towards you.

Being a sa and cp victim is so quirky until you dont even want your own GIRLFRIEND to touch you because some dicks decided itd be fun and quirky to molest and rape 2-6 year old me for 4 years straight and record it. the amount of fucking times if let myself get groomed or even molested because i felt like it was normal is fucking crazy.

self harm is so fun and quirky until you cut so much you cant even move your arms or even fucking walk because of how aggressive you went.

eds r cool until you have to tell your girlfriend and friends how and why you randomly lost weight super fast.

mental illness has to be the worst fucking thing that has happened to me and i wouldnt wish it upon ANYBODY. if you genuienly fake shit like this youre a scum on earth.

this shit ruins relationships and yourself.