feelings

How I  feel 

I guess I could lie and say I'm feeling so great but I'm feeling bad but no one can ever understand how I'm feeling I've done everything from crying until I fell asleep to just sitting and overthinking but I still seem to have a smile on my face even if it's fake just so people can't say anything to me.

My anxiety kicks in every chance it gets no one will ever understand my pain even if I open up about it right now I'm very stressed about school about my cross country meets and everything I can't let it show and the covid makes it worse for me because I'm already non-social and I love that but with covid and school I can´t be me and it gets worse in P.E but I'm working on. What's messed up is that a 13 is feeling like this and no one knows how I feel because I've learned how to hide my feelings and not to show around people I just met. I could name so many songs that are depressing but I won't.   

My question is how do you feel? 

The plus side is I know I will make it and everyone around me loves and cares even if it is not shown enough i'll get throw this and so will u if u feel this way to no matter your age