very old writing.

"you know, dying isn't all that bad, some people think it's so horrible, even when we know it's coming, might be soon, might not. 
the day that i died, and had to watch my lover, slowly move on. i knew it would happen, but i didnt realize it'd feel like dying all over again. call me overdramatic, but, having to see the one you left in a chapter of your life, continue on with their own, it hurts. 
i didnt get to tell him how much he meant to me, we didnt get to say our vows. we just, stayed together, we were never unhappy, never, uncomfortable with each other. when i saw him, even if he couldnt see me; i felt alive.
so when i watched as he told his vows, as i watched him stare so lovingly at that other person.. i knew he had let me go. 
they came to my grave that day, his spouse thanked me, and told me how much my lover, had said about me. i felt alive again, though, it was dull, not really there. it was a faint feeling of happiness.
i know, i was just that one chapter of his life. but it always seems he'll be my title.
he was the reason i stayed. i was safe.
thank you, my love, for letting go when i couldnt. it seems that 'till death do us part' wasn't our ending after all. 
but, im glad. because you look so much happier with them."

A second death, and another life.
Written by, Kayne.
09-14-2021.