Male bsf (gir) ∑(O‿‿O;)

ermmmm... i think i might like Gir again (*/▽＼*). i've known him since i moved to america and we used to low key like eachother in middleschool and freshman year of hs but everyone in our school was so into it we said we didn't :/ . Like in middle he would always be touching my hands and id just had surgery so he would massage the area and always hold my stuff and even tho he didn't like parties he came to the ones at my place and he would stay w me the whole time (´-ω-`). but the shipping thing was so annoying we both kinda stopped talking to eachother in person because people would always say weird stuff and ik it made me uncomfy idk abt him :(. Then in hs we kinda started only talking online and he came over less </3 but it was fine bc then covid happened so... i went back to my country for a little during covid bc it's rlly small and there wasn't ever a problem with covid there and while i was there he texted me every day ( ´•̥̥̥ω•̥̥̥` ). we don't rlly call anymore but when we do it's always like 7 hrs long and i almost fall asleep in call o(TヘTo). we both work and go to college full time so we can't rlly hang out anymore but he texts me every day and his family dragged him somewhere out of the country even tho he didn't want to go so he's been sending me pictures every day of everything and he sent me a pic while i was at work but it was of him instead hduidjivoijijs- it was cute pls i never thought of him like that but it was ( ɵ̥̥ ˑ̫ ɵ̥̥) and now he keeps sending me little doodles via snap (bc i have my imessage muted) recently too he started joking the way i do which is rlly different from how he does [mostly bc i make jokes abt being a sl*t and in my groupchats ppl call eachother wh*res and mommy n stuff but he's still a track kid mentally] he started drawing too and he's not bad like it's actually kinda good but he doesn't believe me bc i've been drawing since i was like 7 and took AP classes in hs and advanced college art classes this year but it's rlly boring ngl it just forces u to practice which obviously does make u better but my skill lvl didn't rlly change imo. anywayyy idek what to do i'm just gonna act like nothing happened bc i have problems talking to ppl ususally and i don't wanna start being bad at talking to him bc i like talking to him u know??