Burnt out

I feel like ever since I left high school life has been going so fast. Like don't get me wrong, I am so thankful to be studying something I enjoy (Art) in uni but I feel like I have no time left for myself anymore. I'm at uni from earliest 10-5pm everyday except weekends, 2-5pm I am creating art and it is so physically taxing on my body, my back hurts all the time and so does my neck. And on the weekends I see my boyfriend or worry and work on assignments, I feel like I neglect my friends because I don't have a car yet so I just rely on my bf to lift me to his house so he is the easiest person to see. But also I just feel like I have grown distant from my friends, like I pushed them away when I did not mean to. Plus I feel like I am still so alone at uni. Like I have friends but we are all so busy so we don't go out clubbing in the weekend like this one group at our uni. I feel like my first year is being wasted when I know that isn't the case. I know things will get better but I am constantly worrying about uni and what I need to do next, my weeks and days and months blur and it all feels like one big cycle of waking up, work and sleep. Like I am logging in from the time I leave my house till I leave uni and when I get back home I log off and take off my mask. Sometimes I feel like I am lying to myself and everyone around me. I don't act the same when I am outside my house, am I just a fraud? Any how, time to prepare myself for another 5 to 6 weeks left of my semester that will all blur.


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