My 2 crushes - The toxic, and the one who's actually worth my time. Guess which one I like more. . . .

So I am in love with this person. They're really cutteee! But my friend keeps telling me they're not worth it, I've seen them first hand being toxic. But they're never mean to me. We hungout this one time, it was magical! We were couple goals! I was starstruck for a whole week! I had this weird feeling, and I loved them more than ever! I can't explain the feeling and I can't compare it to anything, it felt like a movie moment, you know when something amazing happens, but I had that feeling constantly. But for the past 2 weeks they've been avoiding me! They avoided me for like a week, and at first I didn't really catch on to the fact they were avoiding me, so I asked them to hangout, and they're response was "Umm, nahh Im good." 🥲🥹😭 So it's been a week since they've been avoiding me and I was about to confront them, but then they started talking to me again. And now when they talk to me they seem annoyed. 😭 And I've been a wreck!!! I can't handle it anymore! But I still love them! OMG. And I hate myself for it, and I hate them for doing this to me!