life kind of feels like youre sailing on a ship that is very slowly filling up with water.

you know theres things you could do to stop it from filling up, but you dont because you know that in soon time it will fill back up again. and again. and again.

it wouldnt be too hard to just grab a little bit of tape and fix it up, yet you dont...

why is that such a simple task yet it is so challenging to do?

i guess you could also fill the boat up with gas a bit more than just leaving it until it is empty and barely going anywhere but when the boat is filling with water, what is the point.?

you also know that there are others that would be so upset if you didnt bother too tape the boat and it sank so they offer to give you support but if anything their support just overwhelms you, you know that the only person that can fix this boat is you. yeah maybe a few people might be able to give you the tools to fix the boat. but in the end you must be the one to do it. their support overwhelms to the point of giving up completely whilst knowing that it was all you that let the boat sink.

and that is just pure fucking terrifying.