rip to a real one

i was gonna make this a bulletin but idk i feel like it's lame letting it disappear so soon. super bummer but i gotta put down my old ass cat tomorrow at noon. i think she's probably 15 yrs or older cause we've had her for as long as i can remember. i'm tryin to not be sad but i just feel so horrible for putting her down as if she's not in tons of pain :X

anyways, just wanna acknowledge her tonite since i can't do much more for her rn. imma take her out in the sun tomorrow morning and feed her some good food <3 and ill go in with her so she won't be too scared

i'm gonna miss her tons but idk how the other cats will cope with her gone cuz they've always run to her for bathing+help, and i think they've always seen her as sort of a mother figure hahah

anyways, i love u sm lucy and i hope u go painlessly and that you will be more comfortable wherever u go <3