My fiancé slept with my boss and she thinks i don’t know.

Let’s stop and give thanks to those who gave positive feedback on this piece, of course its not done and i wont entirely be satisfied with it, but that leaves for more to come.

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When i had found out about this there was this feeling that came over me that can only be described as being slowly lowered into warm water that’s 10x heavier than what we’re used to, and once i become emerged underneath the heavy water it begins to rise in temperature, the air bubbles start forming around me and soon enough the water is boiling and my arms are tied to my sides and my legs are chained to a cinder block sinking me deeper and deeper into the pitch black darkness.

What happens after that? I really do sit and wonder what the pain was all inflicted for and how can someone be so cruel, the questions don’t ever seem to end. Although i have everything and the world at my fingertips i still choose to sit back and believe there is no such thing as a human so evil, why not pray and hope for the good when there’s other ways proving that any other approach would become almost fatal when dealing with this.

My hope always lied with my mother and father and the examples that were set for me, i mean what’s so bad with being a wife for my husband and children on our private property, serving them fresh huckleberry lemonade I made myself from our garden? My husbands career would be my passion, my children's school and social lives would be my obligation, our home would be the most beautiful home you could ever walk into.

This is my heart its who i am but its being burned down i cant save this home every single time someone besides me decides to disregard what the home means, it almost seems like an invasion only because it feels very intentional and targeted on my mental health. To the extent of not being able to love everyone around me properly because I’m occupied by carrying buckets of water uphill to put out a house fire, watching it smoke in ashes to build it again just to fail to save it once again.

I just want to lay down on a soft bed with cloud like cotton surrounding me in warmth like a warm hug, with no worries in the world to just know that everything is going to be okay then wake up to my home in place just like how i built it. This weight makes me believe that there’s no light at the end of the tunnel and I won’t make it out of this okay, that maybe I’m reaching for a fairy tail and its all my fault somehow someway.

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🌈🦕💖~Grace~💖🦕🌈	1649776571 I'm so sorry abt that. Break up w/her, she doesn't deserve u. It isn't your fault, she just can't control herself and she's petty Report Comment
Ashlynn💋	1649401710 That's horrible girly.. I'm sorry Report Comment
The BX Prodigy Zav Merk	1649144238 You deserve better Report Comment
Temp :) <3	1648871454 Hi, ik im only 13 but I just wanna say you seem like a wonderful person and he didn't deserve you, don't worry about it you're strong, and will make it through. Try to cheer up ok? Report Comment Feedback is my favorite, it means the world by Peaches🌸; 1648872219; Report