I've been gone for a WHILE oops sorry lol

WOW! I've been away for 4 months. I really just came here, said some things, and ghosted lol. Let's talk, shall we. There are 4 days until the first day of junior year :0 I really don't know how to feel. On one hand I'm a nervous wreck. I haven't taken an in person quiz in ages, I need to resort to my old cheating techniques :/ right now I'm listening to one of my favorites playlists https://open.spotify.com/playlist/08fv9WGzkR9ZDNEDGIa7At?si=26QhkVPsQ5GxR50iv32zvg I just started it so I'm listening to In Bloom by Nirvana atm. My birthday is in 12 days! I'll be 16 on the 15th of September. I honestly love being one of the youngest kids my grade, I'm outliving all these old bitches lol. I'm drum major in my school's marching band and we had our first game yesterday, even tho school hasn't started yet. We lost, of course. Score was 42-7...ouch. I would be lying if I said I wasn't expected it, our team SUCKS!!!! Honestly haven't come across another team that's worse. I'm not a big football fan but those games turn me into a drunk middle aged man screaming at a tv in a bar. The "jersey" in my voice makes its big appearance when I screaming at the team. Ex, "ARE YOU TRYING TO LOSE?!?!?! C'MON MAN PUT A LITTLE PEP IN YOUR STEP BUD". Now imagine that in a north jersey accent. You get the image. We only played one song for halftime which sucks but we didn't have much time to rehearse. It didn't completely suck. Honestly can't wait for real life to start. You know...after high school, because I fucking hate it here. Every time I talk about anything I want to do in the future, my family treats me like I'm crazy. Like they complained when I said I was going to become a mortician so I changed it to musician AND THEY STILL COMPLAIN! I mean, music has always played a big role in my life and all so it wasn't just some random thing. It was more of like a realization that I could become a musician if I wanted to. I always thought that it wasn't even a possibility. I'm still going to college to please my parents and to have some sort of education, but I'm still pursuing my dream no matter what. First things first, need to find band mates. God damn. Why is it so hard? Can the world open up so I can go to some shows and meet people? I'm sure most places are open so I'll figure it out. I'm a very introverted person so I'm going to have to go out of my comfort zone by a mile to just go up to people. Why am I the way that I am? That also means I have to go to shows all by myself. I don't have many friends which means I have no friends that have the same music taste as me. I kinda got my friend into mychem so that's a step in the right direction :D. ARGHGHG I'm actually so fucking bored. Like I spent 6 hours of my life making a shirt by hand two days ago and now there's nothing to do. Do I just wait for school to ruin my life and mind? I have no idea what to do. It's inevitable. I have to go. damn. WHYYYYYY???? Honestly love writing these blogs, it's so much fun. I watched the Hillary Duff cinderella movie today and IT IS THE BEST LIVE ACTION CINDERELLA STORY! I will take that to my grave. There's a new one coming out too. I'm not sure why on earth we need another one when we already have perfection, duh. But wtvr it's happening. I saw James Corden in a clip from the "crosswalk musical" thing for the new movie with Camila Cabello and oh god. I never wanted to wash my eyes out with bleach more. He was dressed as a mouse and guess what.........he hip thrusted at the camera. I know...I know. Not something I wanted to see or picture in my head either. What's with him being in every movie-musical adaptation. Is he in cinderella? kinda confused. Ok I think I'm gonna be signing off this blog now. Goodbye see y'all later!!! And remember: FUCK MGK!