WHY DOES LIFE???????

I WAS LISTENING TO MUSIC AND ROMANTIC LOVER BY EYEDRESS CAME ON AND THE BEST PERSON THAT IVE EVER MET USED TO SING THAT SONG FOR ME AND NOW I WANNA FUCKING RIP MY HEAD OFF THIS IS NOT FAIR WHY DOES LIFE???????????????????????????????????????????? AND WHAT MAKES IT EVEN BETTER IS THAT I DONT KNOW IF THEYRE EVEN ALIVE CUZ I MET THEM IN THE FUCKING MENTAL HOSPITAL AND I BROKE THEIR HEART AFTER WE BOTH GOT DISCHARGED AND I HAVE NO WAY TO CONTACT THEM AND I MISS THEM SO FUCKING MUCH THEY WERE SO AMAZING FUCKKKKKKK