future- destiny and fate

 i like to have pre-planned everything i do as then i present calmer and more laid-back (probably the opposite of what i am really, but nobody needs to know that hehaha), i just hate the idea of missed opportunities taking me on different and potentially better routes than the one that's destined for me.

 i suppose right here that i believe that your life is written already on a timeline, i'm not sure how it works, but it makes sense in my brain. 

 i know i'm rambling and i'm not even sure that anyone will read this but i find this kind of thing interesting so i will share it will you people.

 so i believe in fate. i don't think that means i believe in a higher power or some omniscient force, but more that whatever you do and whatever roads you take, they all lead out to the path you are destined to be on. 

life relies on luck, a lot of it, and i suppose that if your destined path isn't good then that's just the luck of the draw.

 i don't like to be so pessimistic on this view but more to dwell on the positives in the fact that you need not worry about what places to go and things to do as it will inevitably graduate into your road, your predetermined path.

 i think i'm scared of the future because i know my fate has been written and so out there is laid out for me, but i don't know it yet, and shan't until its the present.

 i need to find peace in me, and to create a version of myself where i can live in the present, content and happy, without fearing for what may come.