vent// got diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder

i have a tendency to spiral on odd topics and dissociate a lot, need to do things in very particular ways and i certainly have a thing for the occult. i never thought my semi relegious view of myself an the world was actually something that would turn out as a concrete diagnostical criteria lmao

the most notable symptom was the weird view on my body tho. im rotting. im filled with mold, parasites and magots right under my skin. its a struggle cuz on one hand i have this obessive need to shower all the time, scrub my body to the bone, turn it insideout to purge the rot. but at the same time takeing off my clothes is dangerous. im so decompsed, im literally a walking rotting corpse and my clothes are the only thing holding this body together. when i finaly shower i completely dissolve, i go right down the drain with the water. its really scarry.

i hope they can fix it.