I Love 2 Much.

Personally, I feel like I love too much. Is that a thing? loving too much more than the person I'm loving can handle?... I feel guilty for wanting how much I give sometimes (only sometimes) Everything I do is from the heart... I know some people can't love the way I do. I feel stuck. I wish I were more mean, careless, and more independent. I'm a hopeless romantic with a big heart that can also be so gullible and sensitive. My sensitivity towards perfection costs me my whole mind, body, and it's a bit dwelling on my soul, on my heart. I give so much that I'll burnout, my love is a beauty and a curse, I don't understand the long-term effects of love because i have been that 100% close with someone before to where I'd give the secrets of myself with them, I want to be so close with someone to where I wouldn't have to write my intrusive thoughts down, I could share it with them, they could share with me, we'd understand and learn together. Love is like a unbalanced chemical these days, it's like a hole being dug and left alone, what happened to digging till you find the treasure and enjoy the riches together? people give up when it gets too hard, then try to find something more exciting, left complicated, never boring... I don't want that, I want to experience the long term, the reality of loving and sharing your life with someone until its over.