every time i finish programming something, i always feel so fuckin goated

first it was with python, then with c, and now with m'fin verilog. verilog is so challenging because a. the maths are all whacky boolean algebra (at least in my use case), b. there is nothing online about it cos niche, and c. our instructor doesn't know it in-depth (can't blame him, he's a phd student so he's got lots on his plate) so it is a bit tricky to learn all the ins and outs.
coding is so slick tho cos of how it is a puzzle and whatnot... and then when it works it is so so satisfying. i would honestly become a cs major just to code more if i didn't find the professional prospects of that degree a bit placid compared to ece.