3/24/22 (MCR TICKETS!)

last week i went to pittsburgh to go to some ncaa basketball games. not that i really care about basketball at all. i was kind of dying. it was pretty painful. i got to see my aunt and uncle though, and i love seeing them because we have a lot of the same interests :) my sister's gotten into every college she applied to, too, which is awesome. we also checked out pitt's campus while we were there. idk about it for me but my sister seemed to like it a lot.

i've been working more on my music! i made a super rough draft of one of my songs a few days ago. still really blows bc i don't have an electric guitar. it's on my list of things to do, i swear. i just have to get a job first which is a whole other thing :/ whatever. i have to get an electric or else i think i might go insane. 

i have a debilitating crush btw. i see her every day and lose my mind whenever i do. today i saw her in the hallway and she was listening to sober to death by car seat headrest because i reccomended it to her a few weeks ago. holy shit <3 

one of my friends who was ghosting me got back to me, too-- literal best feeling in the world. what else. i had dnd today, and we finished our quest. theme of the day was me finding cool items and not being able to keep them lmao. i'll call it a character trait but in reality it's just my party members being louder and more upfront than i am. ANYWAY. 

i'm not sure what else. i'm officially a bangs girl, so i guess that's something. 

OH. HA. I GOT MCR CONCERT TICKETS. this is actually insane. i've been into mcr longer than i've ever been into any band before. i'm not kidding. i got into them around may 2020 and i just never stopped listening to them. i actually started listening to them because i knew my friend had concert tickets and i wanted to go to a concert, because i realized i'd never been to one. and i thought mcr would put on a good concert so i started listening to them. i was just too shy to ask my parents to buy tickets, and i just kind of dug myself deeper and deeper into a hole. i kind of accepted that i wouldn't be able to get tickets around december 2020 and kind of made peace with it for a while. and then i went to hella mega in august and something in my brain made me feel like i had to choose between hella mega and mcr, so i kind of dropped mcr again. and then sometime in recent months i realized i was going to lose my mind if i didn't see them in concert, and just the idea of knowing that people i know irl are seeing them and i wasn't REALLY pissed me off. so i started looking for ways to get tickets. i asked for christmas but didn't get them, so when FUCKING MIDTOWN announced they were opening for mcr in newark i completely lost my mind. and i texted my mom during school if she could look, it was a total long shot, but she said she'd look. and then we went on vacation, which made me super paranoid they would sell out while we were gone, but we bought them just yesterday. holy shit. they're not super far away either. idk how we did it. sorry for the long winded explanation. it's more for me. but i just can't beleive it. i haven't listened to mcr a lot in the last six months because it bothered me so much to listen to their music and not be able to go to the concert. 

if i didn't get into mcr i literally don't know where i would be right now. i do not even have a hint of an idea. they have literally changed my life so much. like everything i do-- how i dress, the music i listen to, the people i know, the books/movies/tv shows-- they've influenced it all which is really fucked to think about. anyways. i love mcr again. that's it. i thought i was done with them but i'm not. be seeing you september 21st <3

SONG RECS AGAIN:
cough syrup - butthole surfers

polly - nirvana

chelsea dagger - the fratellis

quiet - smashing pumpkins

skrrt cobain - arcadia grey