EMPTY

I feel empty. That could be taken either way, because there are definitely pros and cons.

Pros:

no worrying thoughts- like seriously all the thoughts of death and being afraid have cleared my head.
I'm not sad- Yay! Depression cured... but really it actually doesn't feel bad to not feel sad for once
Not tired- this is something that has plagued me everyday. I could wake up at 06:00 or at 10:00 and still feel the same amount of tiredness

Cons:

No desire to do anything- so just depression without wanting to unalive myself. I'm going to be so hella bored.
Not happy- not sad, but not happy... what emotion is that? Blank?
No thoughts- I can't think of a single thing, ask me a question that I would know instantly, and I have no idea what the answer is. Here's and example: How did Ted Bundy die? -three minutes later- Lethal Injection. (what would have taken no time at all, took me almost five minutes to think of)
Sitting and staring- it's exactly what it sounds like. It's hard to focus now and I just end up staring off into space. This was supposed to be quick and easy, but it's almost taken me a half an hour to complete. Which, with my big brain, should have taken ten minutes tops.

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v0rSaki

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i know exactly what you mean. I'm in the same spot as you right now. IT SUCKS!