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okay, so maybe i’m a but obsessive
and what’s the harm in that?
you’re the best addiction i could ever ask for.
it hasn’t scared you off yet, thank the lord
but when it does, i don’t know what i’ll do
thanks for not leaving yet, considering how easy it’d be
and i’d get why. we aren’t perfect.
i’m needy, i’m clingy, i’m an emotional nervous wreck that’s only being held up by you texting me in the morning.
and of course you’d say you’re the same, you don’t want my tears on your hands
but i’ll always believe i love you more.
worst part is, i’ve got a fair bit of proof for this distrust.
you wanna know what i’ll mention you in? my fantasies, things i’ve been waiting to have somebody for.
and you? somebody with a funny face
i’ll get my hopes up every time you buzz me
and that only leaves me further to be let down
don’t get me wrong, i don’t want you to be Romeo or Casanova, because i’m clearly no Juliet
and being able to have you treat me like a friend too is great, i’m happy you’re comfortable
but just once.
just once i wanna have a mention from you with a sped up song in the background and sappy words on the screen.
just once i want to believe you could ever love me half as much.
just fucking once.
but that’s not who you are.
you aren’t a “let’s plan our future together” guy
you aren’t a “what are we going to name our cacti?” guy
you aren’t a dream, you aren’t a fantasy, you weren’t written for me
and yet in every sense, you’re perfect
i’m so thankful you’re still alive
and when you leave me here on this godforsaken planet to rot,
when you get to be happy without me and i’m left weeping,
when you realise i’m a little psycho and run as far as you can,
i’ll be here if you change your mind.
wish you’d ever believe me though, you never seem to but it.
for what it’s worth, thank you.
thank you for being the person to think about as a love song plays.
thank you for giving me something to look forward to every day.
thank you for letting me love you.
thank you for making my life less lonely
even in, what, five months now?
you’ve meant more to me than i thought anybody could
and i’ll pretend to he realistic, to remember we’re young and all the statistics in the world say we’re doomed
but i believe wholeheartedly that i'll never stop loving you the way i do now
- awful archie, dingus.mp3
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yeya
i love this.
aww, thanks! i can be a bit obsessive over my bf so i just wrote it all down lol
by awful archie; ; Report
it’s a good way to let things out
by yeya; ; Report