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Ive wanted to be a writer since I was 7 but that dream slowly started to fade away and all I really write anymore is just poetry, but I've came to realize writing helps me a lot!! So in these blogs (I think that is what they're called right..?) i'll just be typing my heart out :D so I hope you don't mind these dumps.

I have never ever really had a crush. I have always forced myself to have one because I thought I wouldn't be normal if I didn't have one, all of my friends had one so I thought I had to have one too. In reality I've always kept to myself a lot and so many people have chose not to be my friend because i'm rather annoying?? I don't mind it at all i'm glad their honest with me but I'm just disappointed at myself for annoying someone so much that they wouldn't want to be my friend.

I have a lot of trust in such bad people and I don't know why I put myself through these situations where I always turn out to be the bad guy for trying to do something right, for trying to fix the problem that my friends ask me out of all people to help with. I don't know how to help anymore, I've had to grow up mentally from a young age and now that i'm getting older i'm realizing how much of a child I really am. I love a bunch of pink stuff, hello kitty, anime, magical girls, crystals, and games. I know i'm mature mentally but on the outside im still just a 13 year old girl trying to get back the childhood she never had.