sense of self

Growing up, I didn't like myself very much. I always felt like an alien on foreign territory. My body never felt quite right, my mind never felt up to speed. I never felt like I was of this world. 

The source of my low-self esteem has always been my thinness and being underweight. It's not so much the comments about whether or not I eat that get to me, it's the idea that my body feels and appears to be underdeveloped. I always imagined that I would "come into myself" as I aged, but sitting in this body at 25, I feel the same way about it as I did at 15. Because my body isn't what I expected it to be at this point, I don't feel like I know how to carry myself. I want to be able to show up with confidence. I want to look how I feel on the inside.