A New Job, Being Broke, and Trying to Make A Writing Discord.

 I'm completely broke. I have no money right now and we haven't bought groceries so I'm sort of starving. My credit card is maxed out and so is my paypal credit card. I've completely missed this last payment of all of my cards and bills and I'm struggling really bad. I need to get paid as soon as possible. I feel like exploding. It's actually really stressful and makes me feel horrible. 

 A little life update on things that have happened to me lately- My therapist thinks I'm doing so well that I should go to med management only. This makes me upset because I enjoy therapy even if it's only over the phone now.

 I've been to the ER again for another cyst bursting. It really sucked and I had a ton of pseudo seizures from being in so much pain. They gave me some meds but it doesn't help very much.

 I've gotten into a fight with my boyfriend because we've hit a bump on the future of us having kids. I've said the entire time that I don't want kids and now he's saying that he wants a bunch. I'll never give birth no matter what but now I'm pressed to raise a kid with him at some point. I'm undecided about this idea and now I'm pushing it off until we've been married sometime around our 30s. He said he was just waiting for an accident to happen. That upset me because I made it very clear I never want to be pregnant. I could go on forever about this.

 So for those who don't know, I'm a writer. I write all sorts of fiction but right now my WIP is a fantasy story. I've decided to make a discord group for writers. Right now it's all for fantasy but it might be better for me to make it specifically just for any genre. (It's open to everybody so if you're interested in joining you have to be 18+, on discord, and a writer).