I DESPISE THE THINGS I SAY AND DO

I am so naïve when it comes to multiple things. From occurrences with my significant other to simple things while playing games with friends. I for some reason choose to say things before thinking about what is coming out of my mouth. I want to work on these things and I have been trying to work on them, but recently it seems like an infinite loop of disappointment. I wish it was easier for my to think before speaking, but I am so used to not doing so that it has just become a habit. At the same time though, habits are able to be broken. I am not gonna just sit here and hurt others because of how I choose to not think before speaking. I am working on myself, but its a lot of work. I know I can do it, but there have been many bumps in the road and I know that they definitely aren't the last ones that I will hit. If those close to me see this, please know I am trying and please get on to me when I do something like this and force me to realize what I said was wrong.