Diary Entre 2

IM BACK BITTCHESSSSS dear diary the sequel  oh boy oh boy. 

So last night it thunder and rained like a BITCH, I'm pretty sure there was hail too,  we were under a tornado watch and everything. Needless to say I stayed up a little later than usual making waking up this morning almost impossible. Nevertheless I made it to school (SIDE NOTE MY MOM GOT US TACOS AGAIN LETS GOOO) and went to my classes yada yada. School was mid but for todays highlights: I almost  finished my art project, ate a warm cookie, and went to practice.

(Time to get personal asf y'all so strap in) today was just one of those days man...there were good parts and it's not like my life is horrible, in reality, i have a good ass life. It's just that recently i kind of feel like I'm on the edge of slipping back into my depressive mind sets. It just sucks because, i can feel myself bumming out but i can't do much to stop it. IDK what to do about it right now, but what i do know is that i just need to work on myself.

(EVEN MORE PERSONAL SHIT) I know that my mindset is shit rn, in the trenches, drowning in the gutter, six feet under. The biggest issue i have is that i'm a big people person but right now I just want to detox or something, like fall off the earth for a little bit. I dont want to people. at. all.

It sucks because i know people REALLY depend on my happenis (lol) but seriously. My family likes for me the peppy nerdy one in the family and I have a gf. She's touchy, her love language is touch and i'm okay with it, But with these mood swings she's becoming too much for me. It's not her fault i'm like this and i'm going to break things off soon just to let myself breathe and to be fair to her. I just don't like that she so badly needs my affection and I cant give it to her right now. I can't give it to anyone really.

Anyway, today was on the rougher side for me mentally, but i really like these entries, it helps to vomit my thoughts to strangers lmao. Whelp, i'm going to stop procrastinating and do some homework, but ill talk to you tomorrow diary. Peace Out <3