In The Absence of Porn (continued)

you say that I’m a tease

but I’m just afraid

still I can’t resist a feed 

the smell, the taste

the erotic alludes me

It’s what renews me

while the pornographic confuses me

severed, I still can’t quite define

I can’t deny it holds me

in faith, in sodomy

I pay my dues with my body

shaped by the figures of beauty

in its absence I am disgusting

but shame reeks like piss soaked sheets

I may wear my ugliness with no plea’s

be ugly here with me