vent.

i find myself so disgusting. i am so disgusted with myself, im such a horrible human being. i don’t deserve any good things in this world. i hate looking at myself in the mirror, because then i’m reminded that i’m here. and i’m alive. when sometimes i don’t even believe i deserve that. my days have started merging together. my memory is foggy. sometimes all i want is someone to take care of me. someone to let me hide away in my mind somewhere while they take care of me. someone who will make me feel loved, and like a lovely person. i wish.