big blob

sometimes i feel like this big blob that just. takes up unwanted space, u know? i feel completely and utterly ugly. not just physically. i believe that my soul is tainted with the things i’ve done in the past. i don’t believe i’m a good person. i don’t believe i deserve happiness in life. but i want to be selfish. i want someone to tell me i’m worth it, that i’m good. that i’m not bad and that i’m not taking up unwanted space. i want someone to love me so much they’d take me for who i truly am.