the ' i ' in ' i love you '

how does one letter feel so important in the worst times ? its the thing that secures me and makes me feel so much better when i feel so shit. why is it that i always snap like this ? why did you think i was joking ? why do you give me space when i ask for it ? bug me and pry the answer out of me , i need to feel like you want to spend your energy and attention on me. dont listen when i say ' forget it ' , remember and keep asking me pls. i feel so alone when you dont include the ' i ' in ' i love you '