i hope todays better

so after last night, i think im finding more peace about the situation. i told her i wanted to take time to heal and then maybe try being friends. because i didnt spent the last five months of my life getting to know her just to never talk to her again, ya know?. i know its gonna be hard but maybe we just werent destined to be romantic or maybe right person wrong time idk. i still want her in my life. ive never cared about any one this much. anyways last night after i posted my last blog i went outside and went for a walk to clear my head and a coppo stoped me and ask what i was doing and listen i looked VERY distraught like i just had to tell him the truth. i was like "hey listen man my girlfriend just broke up w me i just needed this walk" but everything was okay its just not what i needed right then and there, i looked so bad like dude it was 4 in the morning i was like "no chance i see another human being". oh well. this whole situation still just kinda hurts because i just wasnt expecting it. i had to go 100 to zero with her. that shit is so hard. and what hurts so bad is she wasnt like "hey like we need to try and see each other more, we might be looking towards a breakup, she was just like this is to hard, we have to break up. and for me it was kinda out of nowhere but hey what can you do.