hmm

i’m lonely. that’s the simple way to put it. i miss being in relationships and i miss having someone who loves me. i miss feeling that connection. but at the same time i’m happy alone. i hate having people depend on me for things, i hate feeling the pressure to constantly talk to someone. i want to be able to be  alone for a little. i want someone who would still love me for me, even if i don’t talk to them sometimes and if i shut down and close them off. is that selfish?