feelin down lately

been feeling super down lately which is nothing usually for me but figured i’d start doing this where no one really knows me but i can still express how i’m actually feeling. idk if anyone else does anything similar but i like to be alone but hate the feeling of being lonely. so i like taking long bus/train rides from one side of town to the other so that way it’s just me and my music looking out the window chilling, but even tho i’m by myself i’m surrounded by people on the train/bus so it makes me not lonley, idk i hate that my brain works the way it does