feelings

i feel like im not enough sometimes, like i feel annoying most of the time for some reason. my parents ignore me in conversations, so i dont try to engage anymore really. idk, i feel like i could be doing more everyday in general. my parents are strict so i dont go out a lot. my teenage years seem wasted; im almost done with junior year and it seems like i havent really lived at all. and i cant. not if i want a house to come back to. anyway, i think im gonna start using this as a "venting" outlet because i doubt people will read it. ok bye