Am I the asshole? Nah I'm not well...maybe :)

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A few of weeks ago they have a very public argument after school that lead to a break up, and I know this because I was actually there with some of my friends. Devin takes it upon himself the next day to apologize too me because he'd cussed me out a month ago, I accept the apology and keep it moving. So from then on its chill n good vibes I say hi to him give him a hug only when he initiates it though, we have small conversations in the class we have together nothing major I considered him at most an acquaintance. Mind you during all of this I'm 90% sure Devin and Sharkie are broken up so I'm not thinking anything really of the hugs and apology (come to find out that they're semi back together and he PROPOSED? what in the high school television drama??). One day after school I see some of my I guess 'friends' gathered in a circle with Sharkie and I can just tell they're talking about me (they were btw but I didn't know for sure until like two days later) so I don't go over to them so I just head home. 

I get home Sharkie texts me asking if he and I have hugged and what our relationship is currently, because he's telling her he doesn't speak to me at all and all he does is sh*t talk me when I come up. Which honestly I didn't really care that he does because its not like he's a significant person in my life anymore, I expect that from a bottom of the barrel, drug addict, cheating, lying, self centered c*nt like him. (Before I get into the rest I want to make it clear, I don't owe her a damn thing I might've forgiven her for home wrecking me not once BUT TWICE I didn't have to answer her questions but I did because I respected her and whatever relationship she was having with Devin) I tell her the truth that we hug occasionally we're not friends just acquaintances. So for an hour Sharkie and I are going back and forth over text and her final question was and I quote "I'm only going to ask you this once o you have feelings for Devin" I'm otp with Maddy but also sending Destiny screen shots, and I'm like how do I even answer a question like that because at the time I didn't know how I felt. So after thinking on a response I decided not to answer at all because I wasn't going to dignify that question with a response. This is solely because of the attitude that was put into that message. She then hours later texts me saying she doesn't want me being friends with Devin. See now once again I had to clarify that he isn't my friend just a mere acquaintance, but I understand her frustrations over acouple HUGS so I'm trying too just finish the conversation because I don't do text arguments.

 Next day comes along and I talk to Sharkie in person and I realize this isn't a me problem its a Sharkie and Devin problem that they decided to drag me into once again. After the convo I walk away and Maddy over hears her saying "there she goes running her mouth to her friends again". Well that caught me hella off guard so I turn back to find her and pull her aside to make it clear that the comment was unnecessary, because she dragged me into her bullsh*t not the other way around. She ends up saying her friend said it but I know damn well she said it because Maddy has that good ass hearing but I keep it pushing and take the high road like always. So now that I explained my issues with Sharkie I can now explain how Polly started mentioning on our phone call the issues im having with Sharkie. So Polly starts saying I'm flirty, and laugh extra loud around boys and that people have been sending her photos of me hugging her boyfriend Erin who might I again reiterate has been my good friend since kindergarten. Erin is a super friendly guy he's never intentionally malicious and he's big on hugs (well he used to be before Polly f*cked him up and now he seems worse than when he wasn't with her but hey thats just my opinion). 

I'm genuinely confused why she has a problem with me hugging my friend but I say okay I won't hug him anymore I'll distance myself to make HER more comfortable, and she just goes on and on about how I know she has had insecurities with her past relationships. And I as her 'sister' (no we aren't sisters but we considered each other family when we became best friends in November 2021) should've known better...now im finding it oddly coincidental that Sharkie and now my 'best friend' Polly are both coming for me because I hugged their boyfriends but mind you I never initiated any of those hugs. Then I put two and two together Sharkie and Polly are like CLOSE CLOSE friends, and then Polly starts talking about how Sharkie was talking mad sh*t about me when they'd went valentines day shopping. I knew Sharkie's nice act was fake but thats besides the point, Polly's saying Sharkie wanted to fight me and Polly stopped her and that 'bitches like me are the problem'. I'm walking around like oh so we being disrespectful now damn thats crazy, Polly then starts saying Sharkie told me multiple times not to mess with her man and multiple people have told me to watch myself with him even before Sharkie. 

Now this entire statement she made is false Sharkie brought this problem to me once not multiple times. Multiple people did not warn me one person did (and we're going to call this girl Molly) and that person was Molly whom I'd grown pretty close with, but Polly and Sharkie had both been saying Molly telling them things was their 'final straw with me'. So I'm not too sure I trust Molly AT ALL. But moving on Polly starts saying again how Sharkie wanted to beat me up and I'm just saying let her tell her to run it, I'm sorry but Sharkie is all talk she is not touching a hair on my head she's been sh*t talking me for weeks and hasn't said a single thing to my phase I'm unfazed. Polly knew id been struggling with s*icidal thoughts for months and her saying all of these things at once was triggering for me and she knew this and did NOT care what's so ever lol. Anyways after I said to let Sharkie beat me tf up she hung up and I haven't spoken to Polly since that phone call. Polly has been on social media posting about me and such, I've been taking the high road. So the real question is am I the asshole for hugging these two boys even though I never initiated said hugs and have no romantic feelings towards them...?