Dating D:

I have two best friends (Archer and Evan) they are both wonderful people! I have known Archer for three-four years, and I've known Evan for about a year and a half! I have also dated both for them before and both or the experiences we're great. Both of the brake ups we're mutual so I'm not mad at them about that. Me and Archer broke up due to us both not being in a good mental place we both realized that we weren't the best mix. With Evan it was a bit more complicated. I think me and Evan might get back together after he breaks up with his bf. I love Evan but I don't know if I want to date him again. I tell him I love him, and I really mean it but when I imagine us together, I just feel stressed? I feel like he deserves better than what I can give him. And the thing is I also love Archer, I think? I love being with him and talking to him, but I don't know if I want to date. Plus he's already got someone else as well. I always end up like this I love someone and I want to do dating things but not actually date? This has been haunting me for a while. I always seem to fall in love but not want to date??? Does anyone else feel like this?