something about anxiety

as someone who suffers with anxiety, i say thats a ducking pain in the ass. like you cant even go to school without having anxiety and panic attacks. and thats the reason why i have really high absence and maybe i will repeat the year. i wonder what my classmates think about me?? that i am dumb?? that i am skipping school??? i dont know. i really wanna live normally and feel hapinnes and that this life is worth living it, but the last two years i didnt feel like this. i wanna go to public places without worrying that i am about to have attacks and vomitting.i already visit therapist and i am on medics, but it doesnt help me at all. i mean, i am really trying to fight against it, but i am slowly losing it. the only possibility that maybe can help me, is mental hospital. i really want to live normally and be able to do thing that i was doing before and enjoy life. i dont want to be this dumb anymore.