boy drama

Theres this guy i like,which isnt new bc i like a new guy every week but theres a problem this guy hasd a gf n id say im friends with her but me and this guy get along really well in person and hes one of thoes guys who isnt awkward in perso, since my last guy bsf of 2 years was so awkward in person and on call and i never got to meet up with him bc he didnt want to.we arnt friends anymore bc we had a massive argument b4 skl started but i kinda miss him bc he would msg me first all the time and we ended up really close,but ik if we become friends again it wont be the same.i will admit i was really toxic to him and i really regret it but at the time i felt as if i was powerful,meaning like i had alot of power over him(which i did) but i  didnt realise that we would eventually fall apart.Right i got of topic there but the gu i like hes got a gf and if im honest i dont really see him as a bf kind of way yk more of a bsf way like i was with the other guy.i cant see us in a relashionship it makes me cringe but i can see us being really close friends.idk maybe i just miss my old bsf relashionship????